My Personal Space

I truly do not understand myself.. I’m a 100% certified weirdo.. sometimes i really do not understand the things i do, the way i think, speak and feel..

I hate the mood swings i feel sometimes..

I hate the sheer stupidity of my actions..

i hate it when i speak before i think, kicking myself afterwards never really made me feel any better..

i hate it when i change my mind back and forth so fast that even i get amazed by it..

i hate my indecisiveness, i never seem to be able to make up my mind.

i’m really a weirdo.. sometimes i really hate to be alone but when people approach me, all i wanna do is to be alone…

sometimes i get very defensive when i hear some comments but i still like to ask about the many things i’m curious about.

sometimes i’d continue asking about things although i know that it’ll hurt me if i know the truth..

sometimes i’m so overly positive, overly perky that nobody could stand me but sometimes i act like the world’s coming to an end.

sometimes i act as a very strong person although all i wanna do is cry my heart out..

sometimes i am very strong although i may not seem so..

sometimes i cry my heart out for little little things or for no apparent reason at all..

sometimes i do not cry at all for things that really scarred me for life..

sometimes i get very happy with the little little things that happen to me, little little things people do for me..

sometimes i have very high expectations of the people around me, nothing they do seems to satisfy me..

sometimes i’m very easily satisfied, just a simple greeting from the people around me makes me very happpy..

sometimes jus a simple word or phrase from the people i care about can make or break my day..

so, in conclusion, i’m really a weirdo.. even i don’t understand myself.. i don’t even know why i have the sudden inspiration to write this.. so, yeah yeah, i admit. i’m a weirdo.. haha..

Yeah well… I’m so dead.. My trials totally sucks.. Haha.. I’m jus a few steps away from my newly-dugged grave.. But, here i am, sitting down and complaining about my results.. Haha… before i continue, i would like to say that this blog is a place where i would probably whine and complain and just share my experiences.. So, if you cannot stand a whining overgrown baby, please do not read on.. Don’t say i didn’t warn you.. ok, where was i? Ya, complaining about the totally disappointing results… Haha… You’re probably thinking,  "Wouldn’t it be much more practical to study right now??" Yeah well, i just like complaining.. Haha.. got tired of complaining dy.. So, i guess i’ll stop here.. Yup, i admit it, this blog is 100% palia.. so, wat? as long as i have a place to vent my frustrations, it doesn’t matter what others think about me.. Good luck and jia you to all my friends who are taking stpm exams this year…