Weirdo
I truly do not understand myself.. I’m a 100% certified weirdo.. sometimes i really do not understand the things i do, the way i think, speak and feel..
I hate the mood swings i feel sometimes..
I hate the sheer stupidity of my actions..
i hate it when i speak before i think, kicking myself afterwards never really made me feel any better..
i hate it when i change my mind back and forth so fast that even i get amazed by it..
i hate my indecisiveness, i never seem to be able to make up my mind.
i’m really a weirdo.. sometimes i really hate to be alone but when people approach me, all i wanna do is to be alone…
sometimes i get very defensive when i hear some comments but i still like to ask about the many things i’m curious about.
sometimes i’d continue asking about things although i know that it’ll hurt me if i know the truth..
sometimes i’m so overly positive, overly perky that nobody could stand me but sometimes i act like the world’s coming to an end.
sometimes i act as a very strong person although all i wanna do is cry my heart out..
sometimes i am very strong although i may not seem so..
sometimes i cry my heart out for little little things or for no apparent reason at all..
sometimes i do not cry at all for things that really scarred me for life..
sometimes i get very happy with the little little things that happen to me, little little things people do for me..
sometimes i have very high expectations of the people around me, nothing they do seems to satisfy me..
sometimes i’m very easily satisfied, just a simple greeting from the people around me makes me very happpy..
sometimes jus a simple word or phrase from the people i care about can make or break my day..
so, in conclusion, i’m really a weirdo.. even i don’t understand myself.. i don’t even know why i have the sudden inspiration to write this.. so, yeah yeah, i admit. i’m a weirdo.. haha..
September 18th, 2007 at 6:18 pm
U r no weirdo. U r just like me
Am I weird? I really think that it’s woman’s curse or prerogative to have mood swings. Definitely normal to be indecisive… AM I a weirdo? Or another way to put it, that’s what makes u special. If u r the same every day, that will be weird. Everyone have their ups and down. It’s just to wait for the downs to pass before seing the sunshine and rainbow again.
U r not alone and no matter how weird, unreasonable and stupid u think u r, never forget that u r well-loved. I LOVE U! Mum and Dad loves you, the whole family loves you. The love is unconditional and neverending.. miss u much too, we want the best for u, so be happy. No matter what happens, we’ll be there for u. U need a ear, a shoulder, a head to find solutions, we’re there. Even if we aren’t physically there, u’ll never stop feeling our support. Don;t reject nor forget our support!
All the best wishes, take care and don’t think too much. Know that u can’t chaange the past and that the future is in your hands. The future is determined this very minute, now. What are u doing now?
October 3rd, 2007 at 10:46 am
LOL..actually tats y we hav a thing called ‘Feeling’,tat doesnt means u r a weird person,i think everybody will have conflicts in their heart,it is juz common so i hope u don be too negative abt it.Sumtimes i also did the same..=DTry to smile rather den cry,ur life wil be more happier.Only ur smiles can shows tat u r cute!haha..